Life Lessons From Jizzle

We wonder why our self esteem doesnt seem to exist, 

we went from slavery to glorifying chains and whips

this is a song about nothing,

this is a song about running

check my mutha fuckin swag

hop out the benz, luis vuitton bags

couple of bad bitches, hermes berkin bags

hair pressed and wavey, gucci do-rag

check the price tag, my catalog’s extensive

i rock a bunch of shit and all of it’s expensive

black diamonds in big pendants

vanity’s a sin, no repentin’

Moet Rose is what i’m sippin

now here’s a generic line ‘bout cooking drugs up in the kitchen

this is a song about nothing

this is a song about running

everybody’s a nigga, i’m race blind

let a white nigga say then it’s a hate crime

now it’s race time, my worth is determined by the pussy i get, waist lines

every woman’s a bitch, a new synonym

i wont take care of her son less maury says i’m kin to him

cuz those babies aint about making paper

and a bitch will trap a nigga cuz she about taking paper

i’m out the door see you later, i had no father it’s his turn

assuming responsibility’s something i never learned

this is a song about nothing

this is a song about running

i just wanna stunt on big screen

fuck taxes, i dont even know what G.E.D. means

giving the youth false dreams, i owe my hood an apology

not that i go to the hood now i live in the suburbs properly

me and my entourage live in a mansion in squalor

making it rain in the club to portray the image of baller 

cuz my self esteem is my bank account

all because growing up i had to do without

this is my new found self with new found wealth

charity is a theory cuz i won’t ever lend a hand to help

nigga just need to hustle harder

generic line about tupac being a rap martyr

this is a song about nothing

this is a song about running

you prolly think i’m being hard on a new generation

but this came to pass after a few considerations

you say this shit on the radio and the people will riot

but if was talking about college then nigga’s wouldnt buy it

cuz it’s hard to hear our brain washed youth giving up

thinking it’s only rapping or athletics because they aren’t smart enough

or reading books is for lames and they’d rather rap for riches

i’d wish we’d talk about education as much as we lament about bitches

call ourselves niggas, aspire to be a goon

when the letter c is what separates a goon from a coon

come up with a “new” dance, praising the “trap” for survival 

when it’s really shucking and jiving,  and they calling us sambo

pushing death on our community in the name of a dollar

“blame it all on the opressor” is what you hear when we holler

you can turn on BET if you think that i’m frontin

we’re the ones who hold ourselves back, this is a song about nothing

MJW

dear summer,

you don have to say you love me back

i wont send the pressure to arrest you cardiac

I know you gotta slow down before you cross train tracks but we’ve been looking both ways instead of taking the blame when we react

but let’s put our emotions on pause

it’s been six long months, with no phone calls

trying to find our way in a house full of halls

we were both so quick to build four walls

mortared with unanswered questions

did love outweigh the sickness? what’s the natural progression

when you knew the minute i fell for you and you didnt say a thing

when i loved you in the winter you just wanted a spring fling

praying to our past in a personal devotional

listening to drake and getting all emotional

promising i’d never trade my love for apathy

but knowing apathy’s the way i’d live with me happily

cuz even now i’m forgetting all our memories

not really sure if you can be a friend to me

love you too much to ever call you my enemy because

i never knew i’d have winters’ regret but call it summer love

Get drunk and hate yourself, it’s all good
Keep saying we left you hanging, we all should
Swore I’d never love you and leave you, god forsake me
You bait me only to break me, crazy you make me
Hate “we”. Us was over before it all started
I was on the other side before the sea parted
Yours beats blood red, but I’m dark hearted
And the words said were more than enough
You were a killer, yeah you murdered “us”

A part of me has been a lie since the day that i met her
I don’t want to tell the truth so she’ll love me forever
not that she won’t comprehend, i never say never
but after living for worse, can she love me for better?

I left spring so me and summer could have it all But running away with summer was just a setup for the fall And as the leaves changed so did what we had in an instant Summer told me she left winter, all because of the distance And it all began in january, in february I said the L word We marched on into april showers and other relationship verbs May june bring the blessing you can use in july Was what a mother said to her daughters, before she passed away in august And like Earth Wind and Fire, we remembered september We had a pregnancy scare in october - november Finished stacking my chips, gathered the family members Got on one knee, gave her the ring, the 25th of december Summer needed time think, she was too young for commitment She was bad at making choices, this was the biggest decision On the 26th she said with no particular reason But she said I was the only man to have summer for all 4 seasons